What I believe

I've often critiqued things. I've often lamented the failures of various belief systems. I've critiqued many things to death pointing out their flaws.

What I don't often do is state what I actually do believe. Even when I attempt to I often end up comparing it to other things and saying "well not x because x is broken."

I'd like to break from that trend for a moment. To attempt to tell you what I believe, without framing it as some vague notion that is "not x, not y, and not z".

I believe in the notion of the ultimate good / truth. That which is unconditionally pure. I believe in this as an ideal notion of totality. The purpose of all in a sense.

I believe there is meaning, and that when I observe something good, or feel something good, that it matters and there is a reason.

I believe that focusing on that which is actually good and persisting at pursuing it matters.

I believe that it is meaningful to care for other people. I believe it is meaningful to take care of yourself.

I believe that the feeling of love transcends sense because it is the pursuit of the ideal without shame giving of yourself fully without holding anything back.

I believe that following what I believe to be true is right to do and that I need never feel any shame for following what I believe. I believe I need never apologize for what I believe.

I believe I do not need to convince anyone of what I believe, in that truth when followed fully becomes an example itself. I believe that that example matters even if I do badly at my pursuit of that truth.

I share what I believe because I want to give what I believe to be truth out freely. If others reject that, I am unconcerned because I believe that the ultimate good will live on. Even the feeble markers I make pointing at it matter, because all attempts to seek out and follow truth matter.

I make no claims about what I actually am. I make no claim to be a good person. I make no claim to be especially wise, disciplined, or successful at pursuing what I believe.

I am only sharing what I believe to be true and what I am attempting to pursue.

I fail. I contradict myself. I lose sight of what I think matters. I am weak where I wish I were strong. My belief in the ultimate good / truth even may change direction as I attempt to clarify my sight and understanding. That may shift my mind. That does not shift the goal I'm attempting to point at.

That I was not properly pointing at where I intend and even that my intent itself was corrupted does not remove the ideal destination of which I am attempting to point at.

I am unable to well communicate precisely how to practically follow my beliefs. They are not so simple as words I can lay out in language. I do not believe such words can exist, because the nature of language itself prevents it. Words can only approximate it.

I will attempt to do so more over time, to elaborate on what I believe in ways that are more useful. Despite that I believe there is value in explaining the ephemeral notion I associate with what I am believing, and that is the above.

If it seems vague that's because it is. Truth is not "do this and don't do that." Truth affects the alignment of your entire self. If I can communicate my entire self into words, then perhaps you could better understand what I mean.